{DESTROY THE SILENCE}

Saturday, March 18, 2006

todae tine n fel came to look for mE! haha. made them wait so long for me till i finally could go for dinner when not so crowded. anyway.. expo was fun.. felt like mummy's stall was da onli one having business.. haa. like so bad say da other stalls no business.. but yah lah.. like everytime so busy till stuff all sold out. disappointed ppl walking away empty handed... sorry ah. but dun worry.. tml come earlier lah.. sure will have one. heh. then everytime so crowded no time to c if da other stalls got business or not mah then when we got small 'break'.. look over hhmmm. like got mayb one or two ppl standing near there.. heh. ahahaha. u noe.. yah lah. haiya. dunno y i feeling like my body aching all over. then eyes a little hot hot.. dunno if i getting fever... shit. i hope i dun! stupid sheeEBy lah.. make me wait so long.. juz wanted to use little while then she make me wait so long. haiya.. nvm lah. i go slp le. hope i'm well tml.. n thnx alot for those encouraging words my dears=] even though i still tink bout ** sometimes... hhmmm. actually still not reali sure wats in him.. want to juz pry him open n dig out wateva he's hiding inside but i cun possibly do tat rite.. well. wateva lah. c da way he's acting.. i dun wanna bother anymore lah.. ? long story.. feeling weak. tok about it next time.. gdnite* huever

you sang to me @ {12:37:00 AM}

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Korn -Twisted Transistor

Hey you, hey you, Devil's little sister
Listening to your Twisted Transistor
Hold it between your legs
Turn it up, turn it up
The wind is coming through
Can't get enough

A lonely life, where no one understands you
But don't give up, because the music do
Music do [x6]

Because the music do
And then it is reaching
Inside you forever preaching
Fuck you too
Your scream's a whisper
Hang on you
Twisted Transistor

Hey you, hey you, finally you get it
The world ain't fair, eat you if you let it
And as your tears fall on
Your breast, your dress
Vibrations coming through
You're in a mess

A lonely life, where no one understands you
But don't give up, because the music do
Music do [x6]

Because the music do
And then it is reaching
Inside you forever preaching
Fuck you too
Your scream's a whisper
Hang on you
Twisted Transistor
Music do [x4]

Hey you, hey you, this won't hurt a bit
This won't hurt a bit, this won't hurt
Says who? Says who?
Anesthetize this bitch
Anesthetize this bitch, anesthetize!
Just let me be
Between you and them things

Because the music do
And then it is reaching
Inside you forever preaching
Fuck you too
Your scream's a whisper
Hang on you
Twisted Transistor

kind of hooked onto this song, strangely.
dun reali go for this kind of song but somehow..
i dunno y. but anyway..
whooO~

you sang to me @ {2:21:00 AM}

So Sick

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

why can't i turn off the radio?*

you sang to me @ {2:14:00 AM}

went bladin with sheeEby todae. she cycled. todae's blades sucked. make my legs so pain then cannot blade properly=( hope i dun get shitty ones anymore. held on to her bike on da way back to da shop cos reali cannot tahan anymore then accidentally went too near her wheel n got scraped a little. ouch. but is okay. rotted at macs waiting for mummy to come fetch us to expo. met tine n da rest then they went off to blade. abit burnt todae i tink. haa. not bad ah. go awhile onli oso can get burnt. had fun luffing at those ppl hu cun reali blade. falling down n having trouble going over da humps n stuff.. hahahaha! so evil rite. but sorry lah. cun help it. . bleah. setting up da stall was.. not so bad lah. but had to walk to da toilet far far away so many times to change water n stuff. lazy... but did it anyway. stayed there for quite long cos had to get da cakes n stuff. haiya. too late to buy my shoes le. bleah. sad lah. mummy say tml morning go buy then after tat go expo so okay loh. hope still have my size. haiya. hu ask my feet so big n ugly. all da nice shoes dun have my size. sad case. well. wat to do.. have to live with it. hhmmm.. still not sure if i'm going genting with them. feel like cos i wanna go shop. haa. dun feel like cos mayb can save $$? yea. ask mummy again loh. she now say cannot... wait until expo finish then say.. but they say wanna book da stuff this weekend. so yaR will pester her lah. got a feeling she will let me go? yea. hope so lah. wah todae go da factory take cakes then got some half half pieces for sampling one.. papa say can take one to eat then of course i take lah.. double choc chip brownie leh!! super nice loh. but then ah. todae's one like no taste leh! oh no... found out later tat they forgot to put sugar. haiya. haiyA! how can like tat... hope nth goes wrong n we wun lose customers cos of this. cos da brownie is actually reali very damn nice one. yaR. haha.

i wanna go shopping!! saw tat reali nice bracelet thingy at da cool jamaican shop at marina sq. i wanna get it! 3 for ten bucks.. hhmmm. nvm lah. will visit there again. sooon..! ha.

you sang to me @ {12:38:00 AM}

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

why

you sang to me @ {2:03:00 AM}

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

finally made it to training todae. was kinda fun n yah din regret going though not many showed up. probably da best part of todae. kept me occupied. did some simple drills n hitting etc. not much pressure though still got a little lah. hhmmm. this thurs cun go for training cos got work. hope it'll be fun yah. expecting loads ppl.

y am i feeling this way? deja vu..? wats wrong with me.. y cun i juz be happy with wat i have. i noe. i shall continue to convince myself tat i'm reali ugly n disgusting jealous selfish b**** so i shldn't feel tat i'm still worthy of anyone. stop dreaming girl. wake up!! no one reali cares. can i juz vanish? please.

i tried to lock my tears up in my eyes
but somehow they managed to escape

i guess my eyelids were not strong enough..

you sang to me @ {12:34:00 AM}

i tried to lock my tears up in my eyes
but somehow they managed to escape

i guess my eyelids were not strong enough..

you sang to me @ {12:34:00 AM}